Andy I feel the lonliness in your words. It's a terrible place to be and hard to get out of. I too am feeling so lonely. I don;t know how to draw Adrian closer tome. It seems no matter what I try dosen't work, and I am left wondering is this as good as it gets? Sounds like thats pretty much where you are too. I did not see him all day and he came home for 5 minutes to get some tools and off to help a friend put in a sink, so I am home alone again. I was going to go with him, but the wife was sick with the flu and did not feel like having company. COuld he have said lets make it another night? Yes, he could have. Did he? No, he didn't. I feel like I'm always last and that he does not take my feelings into consideration. IF he would have just said do you want me to make it another night it would have meant the world to me, but he does not work that way. Its always everybody elses needs first. If I say anything I end up sounding selfish, so I keep quiet and stay lonely. I guess I should be thinkful at least he's not going out with the guys. He never does that thank goodness. It's sad when this BB is the only company you have. At least we have it. I can see how you feeel defeated and at a loss as how to change your sitch. It would take her cooperation and DESIRE to change the way things are. People keep saying this will get better. How long do we wait. I want to spend time with my H. He does not seem to care if he spends time with me right now. All I can do is carry on and put my best foot foreward. IT gets real hard sometimes though. SOrry, I'm not much help to you tonight as I am feeling the same way-LONELY. Rachael
