Quote: Thank you for the encouragement but I'm about to crack. I'm not sure how to ease his pain. He wants me to talk to him, but everytime I keep telling him I want to work it out and I will love him until I die....he says that does nothing to help him with his pain. I keep screwing up....even as I type this. If he's quiet I'll get quiet too, because I feel shame and guilt and I am unsure of what to say. So I try to make small talk, which tells him that I don't care about him. All he does is talk about how I destroyed our life.
ask him out on a date. Don't talk about the R. Make a rule that if you go on a date, NO R talk. Go to a nice dinner (or a loud, crowded dinner depending on his mood ) and a movie. Or skating. Something you used to enjoy - if he'll go, do it!
....Understand, that I can't, not be what I am I'm not the milk, and Cheerios in your spoon ~ Avril Lavigne ~ ..."Nobody's Fool"...
) and a movie. Or skating. Something you used to enjoy - if he'll go, do it! 
