it's funny because I think some of the GAL things for me backfired. I thought about things to do to take my mind off of IT. So I decided to paint one of our walls in our living room. That to him, looked like I didn't care and wasn't concerned at ALL about what we were going through.
Then he was sleeping across the hall and I didn't "beg him back to our room" soon enough. He just "knew" I was doing more with OM because I didn't beg him back.... WTH I told him I was trying to give him his space, like he'd asked.
Can't win for losing right now I tell ya.
I have told H that I don't want another man and I get the standard reply - "YOU DID"...
No I didn't - I keep telling him I didn't want another man, I wanted him but he was unavailable. Since Monday though, I've decided we're not doing that any more. Not discussing it.
....Understand, that I can't, not be what I am I'm not the milk, and Cheerios in your spoon ~ Avril Lavigne ~ ..."Nobody's Fool"...
WTH I told him I was trying to give him his space, like he'd asked. 
