Hey J Did you ever read that book on forgiveness? My opinion is this. Your previous relationship with your Husband is DEAD. You can't go back and pick up the pieces. There is nothing other then your own issues to sort out. Your Husband has to sort his out. You can't just resume the marriage and pick up where you left off. Too much damage has been done. We are not talking about a weekend away, we are talking about 19 months. It is all about forgiveness and learning from our mistakes. Learning how to love again and trust again. Letting go of the past but becoming totally aware of what the break down in the marriage was, so that past mistakes are not repeated. I do believe in 2nd chances. I do think that some marriages should be saved and that during the separation many couples learn how to love each other properly. Give it your very best shot. Although there will always be bumps on the road, you will be able to handle them with grace and tact and love and most of all patience. IF you have given it 100% and there is still no happiness at least you KNOW, without a doubt that you tried your very best. Having a life with no regrets.... J, I don't regret the things I have done in my life because they were learning experiences. BUT I do regret the things I didn't do. I won't ever get that time back. Life is far too short for BS. Take a deep breath....... Hold your nose..... And JUMP in!!
There can be no testimony without a test. I am praying to go through this test and come out the other end with a new and better marriage then before.
