H is here and so is s20, which makes it the first time in a year that all 3 kids and H have been together....feels good, with a few adjustments and cranky moments aside...It's hard to all be together 24/7 when it has been this long and even last year was only for 3 days. This time, H is here for 2 weeks, and then H and I go to Hawaii in January--wacky, huh??!!
No decision about which of us will move, if either. But we'll see what happens with each of our job searches.....I am open, for now. I won't do anything too crazy or anything that doesn't feel authentic. I will make the choice MOST LIKELY to make me and d9 and H, happiest in the long run...I don't assume without question, that being together is the answer. I need to spend time with H like we are now. We are different and have been apart for some time. Also, I do find that anger periodically gets triggered from little unexpected things....a Christmas card from a colleague I never met, since I wasn't there....stuff like that. Not a woman either, just a "separate" friendship that would not have happened if H hadn't left..... I happen to have c appointment this Tuesday, the 26th and H is coming with me....!! That could help a lot in seeing how this all could work. Sometimes it doesn't feel realistic...
Anyhow, everyone, have a wonderful blessed and peace filled Christmas. Peace that comes from knowing that ALL IS WELL in the universe, no matter what happens with a spouse or other person. WE are in charge of our souls, and God knows what is in our hearts. Good luck all, j-
M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016
