Living One Day at a Time

[WCW]

Sheila, I am so glad you posted! not glad that it was negative issues that drove you back though. I think, I know, I feel it, you and J have that base of love that will get you through all your problems. Doesn't mean it is easy, I totally understand the daily frustrations, but it is the overall puzzle that we look at, not the individual pieces.

Not detach and get busy like I should, but withdraw from J emotionally and physically.. a wall of resentment goes up.

Awesome! What a light bulb moment for me when I read this! It happened this weekend when H said he was leaving, needed space, will you do my chores in the morning. I did okay to start with, actually I was fine until he came back home, and even a few more hours after that, I totally understand the need to get away, I feel it too. Then I saw a picture of OW's place flash across on his screensaver and the knife he keeps stuck in my gut twisted again. Then his comment before he left 'you don't have to risk your freedom by looking for me at OW's place', it just infuriated me again. I didn't say anything to H, but I sure did withdraw after that, back into my own cave for safety/security/protection. blahblahblah, I'll start a new thread I suppose, I just don't know where I fit anymore. Maybe Hopefulness, because I am trying and hoping that I get me and my life in order, and yes I still hope that H will be an honest part of my future.

Keep that puzzle together. Sometimes a piece pops up when we squeeze the edges to hard, but we can nudge it back into place and the picture looks good again. You and J are an interlocking puzzle.