Piglet, It sounds like you're acknowledging the behaviors you need to work on to manage your emotions and promote more positive communication from your end. You also said that you're doing better than in the past. Well done!
It sounds like you're really trying and working hard on your end. Perfection isn't expected.
Concerned_Listener
CL 53 W 54 M 20 yrs. 03'-09' Separation + Old Patterns + GAL 10-14' Piecing
"The Master allows things to happen. She shapes events as they come."