NikkiB's new thread, new life

[S.T. _I Made It!]

hello. I've been sick with the flu and still feeling pretty yucky, but wanted to check up on you.

I wish we could figure out the causes of these attacks. What's weird to me is that I keep asking myself, why now?

Maybe make a list of the changes you've made in either your diet or other things. I'm almost thinking that it kinda matches up to around the time that the whole S was mentioned. If that is the case, you really need to focus on letting this burden go. This S is not the end, and could infact be the best thing for you guys. Give all this stress to God and have faith that he will lead you in the best way. Know that He is the best father for you and will do what is best for you. You will be okay no matter what happens.

You are learning so much through all of this. About Life, about yourself, about your H, about your body, etc.

I do hope that there isn't something physically causing these problems, or if it is, that it is something that can be remedied quickly and with ease. I will pray that these episodes will happen no longer so that you can focus on your PMA and YOU, instead of on this ailment.

Everything that you have said about your H all seems very positive to me. He is smart enough to know he needs to figure out what he wants. He did marry you, he wasn't forced, and you know that you guys had a bond between the two of you, it is just something that he thinks may not have been there, or was lost, but it CAN come back.

Remember, don't let these episodes get you down. Don't worry about him seeing you during these times, it's the times after that you need to show him that you are strong and that you can overcome these struggles and that you WILL overcome them. It is a wonderful thing that he has the desire to continue to help you through this. He could totally abandon you, but he is not.

with lots of love,
Crissy