NikkiB's new thread, new life

[NikB]

Hi DonH, I so appreciate the medical perspective, thanks!!! Playing one on TV is still good help!

I do have one other medical type question.. Ellie suggested some medical issues earlier on my thread. I have osteoporosis and a few other issues (acid reflux, low "drive," etc.) that seem to be somewhat tied to other things. So, while I know the obvious right now is former steroids and current stress, it seems at least possible that there's something else going on. Any thoughts??

As for the Ativan/Lorazepam, I actually took 1mg last night and slept SO well, but didn't have any weird amnesia or anything, so I think the strangeness Friday night must have been a combination of factors. Maybe I took more than I realized with the hospital dose? They did give me something via IV - thought it was just saline but maybe it was more. Last night I just felt finally relaxed for the first time in a LONG time and I slept without wanting to cry. Usually I can keep it together during the day but if I lay down or relax, I just kinda lose it. I know it's not a long term solution but I was glad to have the option so I could sleep at least.

I have an appt tomorrow with my doc to talk about all this including possible medication. I did get a scrip for Wellbutrin awhile back but resisted taking it.. didn't want any bad side effects. Two of the biggest problems during our M have been weight gain and .. uh .. sexual "issues"... which are so common with AD meds and I really am afraid of making those worse. But it's starting to look like NOT taking them may be worse for me.

I am excited about a lot of my GAL activities and keep on working on detaching, but I just feel like it's SUCH a fight sometimes. If I can make it even a tiny bit easier for awhile, maybe this will all be better.