Yes it is disturbing to "not have any known flaws" as it will slow your growth. Later on that....But as far as being needy, isn't that what you are displaying by all the examining of your W?
Also, look at life and time as a graph with an angle. Say your "regular" life is at 0' but you make a small change of 5'. Over time, can you see where and how far you'd be compared to having stayed at 0'? That's what small changes do, OVER TIME.
I'll post/check before CHristmas. Merry Christmas. j-
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