Actually, we both have built up a wall. H is obviously not a talker so discussing our R will only bother him so I don't want to go there.

My wall is actually going up because I am trying to protect myself. I don't want to be hurt again. While he tells me that he loves me, does lots around the house as well as favors for me he doesn't really show me that he loves me. By reading others sitchs here I realize that it does take time for the WAS to be comfortable again intimately with the LBS but as you know I am not a patient person. I feel that we are back to our old marriage, the one where we have no $ex life. I do not want that, it is not healthy and what led to my H's A.

On a happier note my b-day is coming up and H actually made plans with me and took the next day off from work! If you remember last year, I didn't even get as much as a card and I ended up going out with a girlfriend and getting a tatoo.