Alot of what you are saying probably has some truth to it. These are feelings about myself and sexuality that have been ingrained into my brain since I was a child. A strict catholic upbringing by my parents taught me that sex was bad, only bad girls had sex, so on and so forth. Of course as a teenager and young adult I rebelled against this but unfortunately ended up with the wrong people which only made me feel worse about myself.
I got so comfortable in my M and R with my H that I lost sight of the fact the sex meant alot to my H and the lack of it made him feel undesired and unloved which ofcourse led to his A.
