Yeah, I know the mixed up body clock feeling - the company I work for is in LA, but I live here in Sweden, and every time I go over, it is a solid week of jet lag, on each end. That may change though, as I may be offered a job in Germany and have an open offer in Boston, so we'll see.
Those new job situations would make a D more complicated of course, but it feels like my current job is winding down, so I don't know. I told my W about them.
Yes, I will keep things between the councilor and myself.
Just had lunch with wife, and felt pretty depressed. Not sure if I should show my feelings (pretty darn hurt) or hide them - I understand that a bright peppy exterior makes me more attractive though. Didn't look at her. Crappy when the only love and physical affection you get is from your 8 your old daughter.
Also, my W wants to keep the house here, is even fixing it up more - am not sure how a moved-out to a place of her own W would fit into the picture then. It seems so much cleaner and simpler to see her as little as possible if she does move out.
Kids are coming home in a bit - must perk up and hide the pain -. Do I have to have a happy exterior all the time now, until W actually leaves me?
Get some sleep -
Luke
M58, xW54 S22, D18 M 1984, D 2016 Living a new life.
