I'm up early because I'm working the night shift for a few more weeks. I've been up all night, which is my day. This morning is my late afternoon. The ol body clock is definitely confused.
I understand your need to vent with a male friend, but try and keep it between you and the councilor for now, it's best. Of course, you always have this board to vent and nobody is going to understand your issues better than those on here.
"It is curious that physical courage should be so common in the world and moral courage so rare." -Mark Twain