Thanks for your good wishes and advice on how/when to ask her about MC. Am very curious what her reaction will be. Wonder if Imago will take just me, without my W.
We had dinner with friends, got back here at 1am, now it is nearly 5am and I can't sleep (woke up realizing that W was back sleeping on the couch, that the magic, if any, of sleeping next to me last night, wasn't strong enough to bring her back again), now am making my will (the kids get most of the stuff, not my W, who gave me 18 good years and so gets 18 percent; sorry for the bad feelings toward her, but I have to express my negativity somehow).
It is hard to remain placid sometimes, I remember episodes from the past three years that encapsulate how bad it is, such as when I held her hand during a walk in Northern California, then we couldn't for a sec, and when we could again, I let her decide whether to hold hands again and she didn't ... Not even the simplest physical affection now, besides a very occasional and only verbal 'Louis' (her loving nickname for me). Funny how not being able to sleep can make you upset -
Somewhat unusual detail - the MC I saw said that as neither of us are Swedish citizens and since we got married in Colorado, that any divorce would be governed by Colorado law. Boy, talk about inconvenient and making things complicated -
Yes, a constructive 2007 to us both (I raise my metaphorical glass to you - also for all your kind help during this past year - and to a brighter new year from afar)
Luke
M58, xW54 S22, D18 M 1984, D 2016 Living a new life.
