Quote: Yes, I agree that I should continue to be a good person for the moment, though I have often thought that I should not be sometimes (she said that I never fight back, that I am not strong enough), that being mad would be a 180 for me and surprise her.
Well, I think that the being mad part is what got to me. I believe that you and I are a lot alike. I am, for the most part, very passive. I have had to learn to become more passive agressive instead. What I mean by this is that you can stand up for yourself in a way that still honors who you are without being "angry and assertive". I believe that maybe your approach should be along these lines. Stand up for yourself while still honoring the man that you want to be. Be firm in your convictions, get your point across in a stern way. What I have done for myself is work on vocal tone to express anger and hurt. I simply speak in a stronger tone and get very serious when doing so. I do not raise my voice, I simply stand firm about issues that are important to me.
I hope that your C session goes well for you. Hopefully your C will work with you on how to stand up for yourself more. I also want to comment on the cell phone issue, your W may be talking to OM on it, and it sounds like you have accepted that. I imagine that the reason she keeps the cell with her all the time is more to keep you from looking through it, finding numbers, snooping. This is pretty typical of the WAS to do. Do not take it personal, just realize that she is protecting her space and privacy, this is normal.
Anyway, hope you have a great day and glad to hear that you are doing things for you right now. Keep it up my friend, all you have is yourself to worry about right now so keep taking care of you.
