Got a little ahead of myself. Things were going so good I thought they were better than they were...not that they aren't really good. But the ain't quite what I thought, either.

Never ASSume, Clarice

We ended up having a little talk where I once again heard something along the lines of, "I'm not attracted to you but it's getting better."

If you ladies, or anyone, can explain what the hell that means I sure would appreciate it. Cause I have no clue.

So I said, "Well, that hurts a little, and I sure feel foolish at this point coming on to someone who doesn't really want it. I mean, while I'd be happy with more sex, I don't really feel like I need it so much right now as I want to enjoy being close to you, want to feel close to you, but it makes me feel kinda foolish to think I'm laying there believing we're sharing the same experience when we're not."

So she nods and says, "I understand."

So I went to work. In the past that would have really sent me into major disappointment, but I'm cool.

The great part is, I'm not in bondage to that stuff anymore!

I don't like it. Probably didn't handle that correctly, probably didn't even need to be said at all, but I really could care less. May have to dial things down a couple notches for a while though...I've been laying it on pretty heavy with her lately and, well, I just don't like feeling foolish.

But no matter. I'm starting to see this more as an ebb and flow marriage kind of thing, something natural that will be worked out over the long haul, rather than a crisis that could throw us all into the pit of despair.

Onward and upward no matter what.

You keep using that word. I do not think it means what you think it means. -- Inigo Montoya, 'The Princess Bride'