I haven't posted because not much seems to be happening. H has tendonitis in his hip that just doesn't seem to be getting any better. He has been to the doc twice. No suggesitons other than - take this anti-inflammatory, don't do anything that hurts (no sex) and here is a 10 day supply of Ambien so you can sleep. He's sleeping but he's still periodically grumpy and rages over nothing. Since we can't "have sex" why be affectionate or think of work arounds? He doesn't care.
I've asked three times for us to set aside time for us to talk (he's avoiding) and I don't really intend to address the sex issue per se but more how I perceive my personal life to be going - in short, my life is radically out of balance. It has become all about work because my agency has grown so much. I love my work but it has started to take over everything and I'm working from home too much. He and I have no life together, I haven't exercised in forever, I haven't done anything to get ready for this baby and I'm exhausted. In the meantime I have watched two people's husbands leave with little explanation leaving behind women who only seem confused. Well, I feel that we are headed somewhere like that if this continues.
The pregnancy is great. The third trimester starts in a week. H has scheduled a week long family vacation an hour and 1/2 from the hospital in my 37th week of pregnancy. He has turned a deaf ear on why this is crazy and why my ob won't want me to - I will be 38 weeks at the end of that week. I just don't care. We will go and I will probably have this baby at a strange hospital with a strange ob. Oh well. I usually have uncomplicated, quick births and frankly, I had never met the first ob that ended up delivering child #1 (he was part of a huge practice). I have given up any control of this. We will resolve the baby's room issue in February which will be plenty of time. We will paint, move DS15, sort the attic stuff, put up a crib and make a list of what to get in March. Then we'll go on a trip at the end of the month and we'll see what happens.
