Oh, I can guarantee that I looked unapproachable last night and I am feeling more and more unapproachable as this sex drought continues. At this point I am feeling that if H is interested in this R at all he will need to "slay some dragons". He will need to look past one evening of unapproachability, look past pregnancy exhaustion, look past eight weeks of little physical contact and no sex at all and TRY ANYWAY.
I feel that any more trying on my part pushes him further away. I am done trying, I am done playing the "mood lightener", I am done gussying up and trying to be open, approachable, smelling good and the like every moment of every day hoping that he will get out his dang sword, jump on his steed and sail over whatever wall is keeping him on his side of the bed and our life.
So, I see what you are saying about my H but in general I am the one always putting on the positive face, making light, saying "hey things are hard but let's be together anyway". My black moods are few and far between and the ones I express on this board are usually undetectable anywhere else. When I do show my darker feelings like last night I get this reaction so I try not to do it often.
