GH, it is good to hear where you at and glad to see you are in better place compared with the past few days. At your encourgement I have read through alot of your past and picked up some valuable insight into the db process. Coincidently with help from my C, I have come to realize that much of what I am doing is directed at my w and therefore not authentic. I do this because I am afraid of a bad outcome. I am presently trying to overcome that fear.