That is what I am struggleing with, I don't want to loose the friendship. I know that there would be no future there with him anyhow. I know that I crossed a line that should never have been crossed. Yes there are still somethings that H and I need to work on and maybe that fueled the fire some. Trust me I have looked inside myself over the last couple of days, and that is how I came to the desision to stay and not try a new relationship. I truely believe that my friend would respect that desision and not cross that line agian, it took him over ten years to try it again.
