Well I am too lazy to go find a thread of mine that is not about a WAW so I will post an update here.
H and I are doing really, really well.
You know, I remember when things started to erode and each day it felt as if we were a little more distant than the last. Some days were good and we were a little closer but mostly we just continued to drift. I knew it but was preoccupied and foolishly thought that things would cycle back easily. Fast forward about 5 yrs and we were still very good friends but there was little to no romance between us. I realized, rather quickly during my pregnancy with our second child, that I couldn't go on like that. So at the end of that pregnancy I laid it on the line and then we began the torturous process of fixing our M.
During the next few years I could not count how many times I proclaimed us fixed--countless. I was either flying high with our latest triumph or in deep despair over our lack of progress. I doubt any of my faithful readers even noticed this. (heavy sarcasm there)
Now.....I can literally feel things improving every day. It is like a reversal of the days when I could feel them falling apart. It is building itself back up, layer by layer. VERY wierd to experience it, but there it is. We are spending more time together, enjoying each other's company, having plenty of sex, and overall learning how to be lifetime partners. Which means, of course, that it isn't all roses and champagne but neither is it me bawling every day in the shower (so the kids don't see) and him punching holes in the walls out of frustration with me. Learning how to create romantic/sexy feelings in the absence of drama has not been easy but finally..finally..it's here.
I am sharing this because I think I was expecting it to feel more like a 2nd honeymoon. We'd wake to discover one day that we were passionately in love again. It hasn't really worked out that way..it's more of a gradual rebuilding, with the end result that we are indeed passionately in love but without the dramatic reunion. Not that there isn't that 'reunion' feeling to it but that it is happening gradually instead of all at once.
