The OW called me at work tonight. She's been out of town on business the last few days. She asked me again what "I think about us". We had one hell of a frolicking encounter before She left. All the details occasionally cross my mind and smoke starts rolling out my ears. Wow, she's really something! I think She's trying to get some kind of commitment out of me, it's the third time she's asked me. I've talked around the question and she doesn't push back on my answer. At least not yet, but I think she's looking for more.
I don't want to lead her on or anything, and I am really honest about everything with her, but we really have not been together for that long. I really didn't expect her to get so close to me so soon. I was just enjoying her company. Why does it have to get so complicated?
I skirted around the question again over the phone and told her I would see her when she's back in town. I really didn't expect dating to be like this. I thought I could just date and have some fun, but She wants a commitment that I'm not prepared to give.
I think I'm now scared of commitment in ANY form. Ugh, this OW is beautiful in so many ways and I'm damaged goods. I don't feel that way about her, but I like her company. I know I will have to say good-bye to her soon cause I think she's looking for a husband or at the very least a long term relationship.
Is this bad on my part to be this way? I don't want to hurt this OW the way my W hurt me. I still want to see her and spend time with her, but I don't want to commit. What should I say to this question?
Waiting on my house to sell before finalizing my D, but I know those filed papers are not going to make a difference on my outlook.
"It is curious that physical courage should be so common in the world and moral courage so rare." -Mark Twain
