W invited me over again last night and I did go over. She was less receptive and distant than she's been the last few nights. Again, it seems she's back to her alien self again. It's just as well, I kept my expectations low. We talked non R talk and I played with my S6 for a while.
I really can't figure her out anymore these days. One day She claims she misses our R, then the next She claims she's comfortable with the way things are (separated). In the past, I would have been on that roller coaster of emotions we're all so familiar with, but now I just shake my head and call it another day.
Sometimes, she shows interest in my social life and is interested to know if I'm seeing anyone. I think she knows from contact with my Sisters that I am GAL. She emailed me the other day and asked a question to the effect of "who's the flavor of the week this week"? It kind of took me by surprise, but I did know what she was referring to. I can't tell if it bothers her or not. Sometimes I think She's indifferent to what I do on my own and then other times I think She prys to much into my business.
At this point, I'm so use to being by myself that I'm becoming very comfortable with it. I think if we ever did get back together (big if), it would take a lot of effort on both our parts to get use to living with somebody again.
I'd really like some advice or opinion from others here as to what stage of MLC she's in or what these signals mean. One day I get the vibes from her that She's trying to reconnect with me and then other days she back to the way she was towards me (distant).
W - I love you, I love you not, I love you, I love you not, I love you, I love you not!!!
M - WTF?
W - There might be a chance, There might not, There might be a chance, There might not, There might be a chance...
M - <Yawn>
"It is curious that physical courage should be so common in the world and moral courage so rare." -Mark Twain
