My W calls me at work this morning and tells me she is a little depressed. I ask her why and she tells me she went to a party last night and everyone was with their significant other. She said she felt lonely and said it made her think of me and our situation. I validated her feelings and I told her to cheer up, that no matter what our situation was, we would both be OK.
In a bizarre twist, I steered our conversation away from R talk and started joking around with her. I kept it light and told her how I was impressed with the work she put into the Christmas decorations on the house. Told her that no matter what part of the city I'm in, I could look towards our neighborhood and see the brilliant light illuminating the night sky above our house and that I was probably the best friend the Electric company could ever ask for. She laughed a bit and said it was nice of me to notice the work she put into it. We talked awhile longer and I could hear in her voice that she was feeling better the longer we talked.
I didn't know how to respond to her wanting to open up the R talk. It's been so very long that it felt awkward to me. I was at a point where I didn't have any hope for us, then I get this surprising call from her this morning. I had an angry outburst a few days ago and have not talked with her since although she did leave me some VMs. I have not heard her sound so apologetic and so willing to open up emotionally to me in a very long time. This was a very strange 180 for her.
What does this all mean? What is she saying to me?
"It is curious that physical courage should be so common in the world and moral courage so rare." -Mark Twain
