Thank you for your post. I was very relieved to hear that sometimes it takes longer. I thought that I should be way beyond this now but wasn't. That makes me feel really good. I'm sorry that you still hurt, but they must be plenty that do still hurt everyday too.
I'm not okay today but, someday it will be okay.. Something I have said to myself so much. It's almost a mantra for me.
I went to the therapist today the one I was thinking about leaving and I told her therpapy was not going in the direction that I needed it to go. I told her that I wasn't finished with the marriage and that I needed to get it out. That I wasn't helping myself by keeping it in. She started to ask questions and it flowed really quite well. She understood my point. She did refer to some back sessions and what we had discussed, but I told her my need was working on getting back myself something I need to do and work out the ending of my marriage. She listened really well and I will still go to her. I just need to speak up to them.
I am on medications and they are doing the best that they can do. I go routinely to the psychiatrict doctor and I really know when I start going bad and not taking care of myself. I have had emergency appointments with him so I know that when I get bad I need to go to him. Thanks for your post and your wisdom ITSY
M54 H54 married 30 years Prostitues and Other women "100's" 10/7/2004 Prostitue/Junkie girlfriend 6/04-1/07? Left 1/5/05 returned 1/9/05 Asked h to leave 4/2005 Had to, prostitues OW 5/2005 not a prostitue Divorced 9/2006
