Quote: I went out Christmas shopping today. Got some gifts for family members. Then I bought new stuff for my new condo. YYYYYIIIIIPPPPPEEEEE, it's all about me. HA
This made me smile. That's right...it's all about you.
But even so...
Quote: Down days, once we get through them help with getting stronger and provide us w/clarity to our situations.
Quote: I wish that I never reealized what was going on. It gets me to thinking again and I don't need that... I don't want the feelings to come back. I don't want the depression. I don't want to obsess. I need to move on I need to go on alone. I know that I will be alright but something in me still says maybe.......this is not good.
There is a fear in thinking isn't there? Some who are depressed but trying to avoid it keep busy to avoid the silence where thinking occurs. There is a balance between obssessing and avoiding.
Quote: I'm getting crazy. But i feel a need to talk about it. I want someone to listen to me about what i have going thru for the last two years. I need to get it out. It's anger and sadness at times now and I don't know how to deal with it.
You are right. You do need to talk about it, allow yourself anger so it cna release, and allow the tears. Yes, find another therapist. And I liked what Snodderly said about a divorce support group.
Find someone who can give you {{{{HUGS}}}}. You really are strong and doing well. But do you believe that? Of course don't overspend...but go out and do those YYYYIIIIIPPPPPEEEEE things for yourself. This is about you. You would not have a better life if he comes back...or worse, merely differnt. Your life is YOURS and you can make it better on any path you walk.
Find the quiet place within yourself when your body and mind is telling you to stop and rest. And except those wonderful YYYYIIIIIPPPPPEEEEE energies when they burst forth too. They are all a part of this beautiful life.
