Hi Laughing,

Thank you for validating me re: d4. Her behaviour has actually improved quite a bit lately so I am sure it is just her being 4.

Well I did mess up going dark. I wanted to stay dark at least 3 months. H kept pursuing and finally he got me. He asked for a picture from d8s communion. It was the last one taken of his dad. I have already given him a copy but he couldnot remember. So I found my copy. The memory card has been erased and I said that I needed to make a copy for myself. He then asked me to make an enlargement for him and mil and some extra copies for some relatives. So I did. Anyway the irony is that the picture is a family picture me included and now and h and mil will have it on display. H could have had it done himself and cropped me out but he did not. I really dont think he will care either how ow feels. He will just think it is now big deal because it is a picture of his father.

Last night when h dropped the ds off I was in the shower. The ds came in to show me some new toys and h also came into the bathroom. I found that a little strange.

The ds have also not mentioned ow in a long time. H tells them not to but d4 usually lets the cat out of the bag but so far she has not. I am sure she is still in the picture.

Okay so I cant stay completely pitch black dark now but I do have to be too busy and try to leave before he gets here and stay in my bedroom when he drops them off. He has not stepped foot in my bedroom for a long time so it should work.

Well enough about him. I have tonnes of stuff to get accomplished this year especially before I start school. The first is I need passports. We are going to Disneyland. Still 4 hour line ups though.
My goals.

1. passport applications filled out (including hs part on the ds forms ) and pictures taken this week. To the passport office by the end of the month.

2. I have to call au pair agency to inquire about au pair for September.

3. I have to call Revenue Canada (owe them some money yuck).

4. I have to look into starting new home business for when school begins and I cant run my daycare.

5. de clutter. I have some large appliances to donate.

6. Paint my kitchen this month

7. Paint ds room in February or March and get them new beds.

8. Work on reorgnizing daycare so I can repaint it and rework the space when I close.

It is all doable but there is a lot of stuff. Much of it left behind by h so my work is cut out for me.

Well time to get started.