Thank you for coming by. Please don't worry too much about me I am getting there. I never thought I had any expectations until you pointed it out. Old habits die hard I guess or maybe I am a glutton for punishment.
Anyway about ow she really seems so insecure and has such low self esteem. I know they all do but I really think she has a problem with dating a married man. I may be giving her too much credit but I really think h had her snowed the whole time and continues to smooth things over with her. I think that she is just too insecure to stand up for herself or to leave him. I am not sure that I am the one that said they would have a row over it. In fact I think the exact opposite. I don't think she would say much and I think h just again smoothed everything over with her and she bought it because she has no back bone.
Going dark has been good for me but you have to understand it is still so new. I think in the time that I stay dark it will help me gain the perspective I need and h will be less of a priority in my mind.
I do realize one thing for sure right now. I need to except the end of my m right now in order to begin a new life whether that new life includes h or not. As long as I except the end I will have a new beginning. I am getting to that point but slowly.
BTW I will make sure Santa is good to me this year. LOL.
