Hello everyone, Just an update. I want to start a new thread with a more positive title but I can't think of something fun right now. So many great party threads going on. Tonnes of good pma around. Lots of good laughs.
Anyway where I left off. I emailed h about christmas concert. I said "my father is going to be there so some good judgement is in order (re:ow). But you don't care how I feel. You are going to do what you want anyway". I should not have posted the last part as I was trying to keep my emails as emotionless as possible. Then I sort of braced for a response. But this is what I got.
H:"I wasn't planning on bringing ow. I knew your dad would be there and you as well. No worries".
Wow I thought. H actually defused the situation and I thought I would have to. He even sounded like he had thought about me and my dad but I am sure he just knew I could rip another strip off of ow and she would again look like she wanted the ground to open up and swallow her. Fitting place for her though I would say.
Anyway he was supposed to pick up the ds at 1pm on Saturday. He showed up at 2:30. He is trying to keep me from having a life. He is trying to control me. But I would not let him. I left before he got there.
So we went to the concert and we sat together. H made talk about ds. Then dumbass me offers him a coffee? Good Lord that is not being dark!!!
He thanked me and I just said no problem. Then he noticed I had not gotten one for myself and he thanked me again.
But when he came to drop off ds I stayed dark. Did not leave my room. He came to talk to me a second about ds but did not set foot in my room.
Monday he had the ds for the evening. He was late and I had to leave before he got there. He dropped them off very late. I again did not leave my bedroom. It took me so long to settle down my girls. When he dropped them off he was making a mad dash for the door. Barely set foot inside. It is so obvious he is harbouring a lot of guilt. He does not want to face me.I think next time I will time how long it takes him to drop off the ds and run out. Then I will challenge him to beat his time!!! His life isn't so perfect after all.
But going dark is so good for me. It should help him focus on his very disfunctional r with ow.
But enough about him. Now it is about me.
I bought myself a christmas present because I did want want my ds to see me open nothing. I am sure h will flaunt all of his ow gifts. But on the plus side I don't have to spend any money on h and the gifts I bought myself are what I wanted. Now when the girls ask who gave them to me I will say Santa. If they tell h he will wonder who Santa is. LOL.
I am getting my hair done tonight. Some highlights. My hair looks so black. I need to add colour.
Tommorrow I am going to a hockey game with my neice and her uncle.
Oh and the best news is I got excepted into one of the universities that I applied for. But I think they think I want January. But that is too soon for me. I have a life and so much to figure out. I have to say I am looking forward to closing my home daycare. I hope to start a different home business. I am burnt out of daycare and I am tired off the mess. I think this is one thing which will also help my pma.
I was thinking too that is time to officially get the financial stuff in order with h so I know how much of a student loan I will need. At least being a single mom does have some advantages as there are always grants available for school.
Anyway my house is decorated for Christmas. My ds are mine this weekend so I think we will do some holiday baking and looking at Christmas lights.
