I sure hope I am on the right track this time. It feels right even if I do have some ups and downs.
I am so slowly coming to that place I need to be.
I started cleaning out my closet and I got rid of some of h's things. He took only what he wanted and wants me to take care of the rest. I still have not seen him. I left before him again yesterday and I stayed in my bedroom when he dropped the ds off.
He has the ds this weekend but d8 has a christmas concert. H is going to bring them and I know ow is going to go but the thing is my father is coming. I guess this was all coming sooner or later so it might as well be now.
He is asking me if he can have the ds on Christmas this year. My family celebrates on Christmas eve. So I am being a little difficult. I have to make him sweat.
Anyway going dark has helped me tremendously. H has already began a little pursuit although subtle and very hesitant. But this is not about him.
