Thank you for coming by. I am finally getting it I think. It makes me kind of sad that my m may be dead. I will always pray for my h though. If I dont nobody will. Certainly not ow she did not have a clue about being in church during the funeral. It struck me today how h was flaunting his adultery in a catholic church in front of his wife. The other odd thing is that h seems to have found an interest in God again with the passing of his father. Strange I think.
Anyway h came to get d4 last night as d8 had brownies. He came late to avoid me. When he dropped d4 off I stayed in my bedroom. He was of course in a huge hurry to leave. Then finally it struck him that I was not there. He asked d8 "is your mom home". He has never referred to me as "your mom". It was always mum or mommy but what do I expect.
D4 told me today that daddy said he was not coming home. Now he is using his 4 year old as a messenger. How sad. I am sure that is how I will find out about d papers as well. He is such a coward. This is definetely not my h anyway.
Well that is all for now. I am feeling a little bit down today but trying not to let it get to me.
