Barbie thank you for your concern I do know where you are coming from. But you see this is the first time my h is really gone so it is like the begining in a way except that I am much stronger. But it was so hard to take a tough stance with him before because he always seemed so lucid. He was never as bad as so many others and he had no ow for the first two years. When I finally started moving on he pulled me back. He reconnected for about six months and then he turned 40. That is when ow surfaced.
I again tried to distance myself and I was doing really well when his father became ill and I openned myself up to him.
But now it is time to move on I know. Communication will be through email only.
MTN Your post made me cry.Thank you for validating me as I still feel foolish for reacting to his games. I know ow is only taking scraps from h as I took those scraps for years and this is when he was supposedly healthy. I cant imagine what he is like in mlc. It is sad though because ow really does not know any better. I do hope for her sake she wises up because she is wasting her time with my h especially while he is still in mlc.
I have been doing a lot of soul searching. I am wondering why I want this man in my life. He was not a great husband. He had some really great moments but there was so many times he was not there for me. I have been feeling more and more like I dont want or need him back in my life. Lately have had more and more of these days. They have not just been fleeing moments. So I think I am going to work toward a completely separate life from him. Going dark is the first step.
Thank you all for your help on this matter. I can always count on my friends here to pull me out of the dumpster.
I think I am going to let this thread drop though as I do not like the title. Soon I will begin a new more positive thread which will only be about my life.
