More visitors. I love this place. Maybe that is why I find it hard to leave. Anyway I have been doing a lot of thinking re: my whole marriage. It was not all bad but it was not that great. I too had low self esteem and when I met h he boosted my esteem but as time went on he chipped away at it. I know it was because of all his issues and I did not know any better.
I can actually see the same thing happen with ow. She looked so lost and uncomfortable and h did not even care. He thought by holding her hand he was protecting her but she was lost. But it was all about h wanting to stick it to me so he did not notice how any one else felt.
I know you are all going to think I am crazy when I tell you this but I really feel sorry for ow. She does not appear to be a predator but I think h preyed on her. I am sure he has filled her head with lies and she does not know what to beleive. Hopefully she will wise up as I think it will take h a long time to. Well I felt so bad that I left a vm for both of them apologizing. I know it sounds crazy but I felt compelled by my conscience or the Holy Spirit. I did not do it to change anything but only because I really felt bad.
But my going dark has begun. When he comes to get the ds I will make myself scarce or leave right away. I really like time away. In fact even before the funeral I thought I have had too much of h lately with all the talking and phone calls about his dad.
BTW Nicole I did not vote for the wrong team as we won the Grey Cup.
SA3 I am looking forward to an update as you have not posted in awhile.
Ds and I had a great weekend. On Saturday was d8 bday. We went to build a bear. Then since we were at the mall we went to see Santa. In the evening my family came over to celebrate ds bday.
Sunday was d8s first alter serving day. She was nervous so the sister promised her she would not have a special job but she ended up holding the water and wine. The monseniur (sp) was presiding. I was so proud of her.
After lunch we went on the Christmas train. When we got home we decorated.
That is all for now. I will visit you all soon. When I am sane enough to add something helpful.
