BIG ((((HUGS)))).....I am so sorry that you had to deal with OW!! And in the situation you were in.......I can't even imagine!! You did a great job and don't beat yourself up. Your H mad an A$$ out of himself!! Hard to figure out what these MLC'ers think/feel!!
How are your kids with all this? I bet they are just too young to "get it".... My kids are starting to see "the real dad" in their dad. He is still so self absorbed and into "himself". We (they and I) are moving along without him in a very calm and mature way. I do beleive one day he will wake up and wonder where his life and little children went. My 9 yr old S is more rational, mature and level headed than his dad......and he knows it!!
Anyway, my heart is aching for you, I know this must have been an exhausting/emotional event. Reflect on your stregnth and keep moving forward!!
I will update one day soon,,,,,so much is going on with me, I just need to put all the fianl pcs in place before I update....