Thank you for coming to my rescue. Reading your replies and knowing how you all understand is a real comfort.
H is furious with me and again he made me feel guilty for his stuff.
But as I had trouble sleeping last night I realized how he used me again. He pulled me in with his father's illness and death. Oh I am not saying he did not see me as a comfort but all in the while he had ow. I knew she was there but it sure seems he set me up and I played right into his hands. He wanted me to react so he had a reason to hate me. I am mad at myself for openning up myself to him again. I thought I was doing the right thing but I have been allowing him to cake eat.
That stops now. I am going completely dark. I want to communicate only through email.
I do have some regrets but h takes no responsability. I did not want to believe that my h could be so manipulative but I was so wrong.
He cancelled on d7 (now d8) bday party today. Of course he is going to through her one on his own.
