I understant Ben.....Last night he was completely in the dumps. Mom said that he was fine when he first got there around 3:45. By the time I got home at 6:30, he was in a stooper. I don't know if he wanted some sympathy or wanted to see if I would ask him what was wrong. I asked him if he was ok and he said no. His body actions were showing me that he was way far away from ok. Normally he would stay in the living room with the kids while I am at home so that he doesn't have to talk to me too much, but last night he stood in the kitchen with me and helped me make dinner. He said that he just can't understand why this was happening to him. I just looked at him. I asked him if he still had the cd that I had burnt for him when he came home the first time. He said yes...and I told him that he needed to start listening to it. (He had downloaded a bunch of christian songs to help him get through what he was dealing with) I told him that I pray 3 prayers over him everyday..that is when he started to tear up. We talked for a few minutes but I made sure that he knew that I was there for him and will listen whenever he needs to talk. He stuck around for a few minutes and then said that he needed to get out and clear his head. He said that he was headed over to your house. He didn't leave angry and I told him to be careful when he left. I was not in the dumps about anything and I didn't look at him with puppy dog eyes. I just kept smiling and I almost seemed joyful. It isn't that I am celebrating his failures, it is just that I am seeing what prayer is doing and so is he.

He said that he was coming back over to the house today. Hopefully he will stick around long enough for us to play some games with Q. Q always loves that and J seems to relax and actually smile when we do. These are the times that I think he sees what fun he is missing.

Other than that, my evening was pretty good!

Too funny about the phone! You might want to wrap that bad sucker in a ziplock bag whenever you jump in the tub or shower with the kids around!

"Be patient to persevere and wait for God to heal. Keep in mind that you are both imperfect people. Look to God as the source of all you want to see in your marriage and don't worry how it will happen...Leave it in His hands."