Not giving up even though H having an A

[not_giving_up]

I have been in a fight for my M since the day I found out about the A.

I may try to call J to see if the admin got a hold of him. Maybe when he comes over tonight, if he still does, then he will tell me what is going on. I am not going to push the issue. I will just let him know that I spoke with the admin for a few minutes and that he was asking me some personal questions.

I know that you are just trying to help. That is all anyone is trying to do. But I am going with my heart in all of this. I did alot of praying about this whole admin situation last night before I had even talked to the admin. I knew in my heart that J was not telling me the truth about what was going on. I was going to call him this morning to see if he had gotten in contact with J. But the issue presented itself to me this morning when he called and talked to me. There have been times when I have said things and it really isn't me saying them. They just come out of my mouth. Nothing meant to harm anyone but they are things that have come from alot of praying. You may scoff at that, but it happens. It was if I couldn't control what was being said or how it was being said. I said nothing to destroy J's reputation even though he is doing quite nicely on that himself.