I am ok....survived Christmas. H came over for about 3 hours Christmas morning and left by 9:30am. He watched the kids open gifts, played a few games and then left. He had to work that night but I am sure he hurried back to her.
We actually spent some time talking this weekend. He was suppose to be there at 5pm on Saturday night for our little Q bday get together. Didn't show up until 6 and then left by 7:00. We sat up in our bedroom for about 45 minutes talking. It seems like OW drug me into her excuse of not being home because she doesn't trust him. She wanted to make sure that he was telling her the truth on some things. And I told him that it seemed that she didn't trust him. I had asked him to turn off his cell whenever he is at the house because she always seems to call him when he is there. It is almost like poking fun at me that he isn't at home.
Then on Sunday, he came over after we got home from church. It was rough for a little while. He blew up at me because he was getting some of his clothes. He came down and I asked him if he ever felt guilty for the way he had been treating me and he said yes. I asked him why he never apologized and he said that he does. He doesn't. If I say something that I know he took the wrong way, I always apologize because I don't want that hanging over my head and it being used as an excuse to not come home. I asked him if he believed everything that she tells him and he said no! THEN WHAT THE HECK IS HE DOING WITH HER!?!?!? I asked him if I have given him any reason to doubt what I say and he said NO! When he was leaving, he apologized for blowing up at me and then said that sometimes he thinks about coming home and sometimes he doesn't. I don't know how to take that but ok.
Then he came over on Monday and only stayed for a few hours. I got the kids ready after lunch and took them to Z to see his family. I have a feeling that all of his mom's sisters know. They all walked me out and helped me get the kids in the van. They all said that if I needed anything to call. That felt good. From there I went over to his grandma's house to see her and his dad. Stayed there for a few hours and then left. The funny thing is that the only one that asked where he was, was his grandma. I just said that he wasnt' there.
Other than that, Christmas was ok.
"Be patient to persevere and wait for God to heal. Keep in mind that you are both imperfect people. Look to God as the source of all you want to see in your marriage and don't worry how it will happen...Leave it in His hands."
