I am ok....As it gets closer to Christmas, I am feeling the need to shake the crap out of H. I would love to know what the heck is going on in his thick skull.

I know that I am not going to say anything to him about what my plans are for Christmas. If he really wants to spend that day with us, then he needs to get some 'kahunas' and ask. I know that when I tell him that I am heading down to Z-town to see his family, he is going to start to feel a little left out.

I pray that he doesn't try to call his mom on Christmas. She has emailed me and pretty much disowned him. She said that she never bore a son and if something were to happen to her, then he is not welcome at her funeral. That is going to be something to either send him into a deep depression or shake him enough to make him realize that what he has at home is far greater than what he is messed up in right now.

"Be patient to persevere and wait for God to heal. Keep in mind that you are both imperfect people. Look to God as the source of all you want to see in your marriage and don't worry how it will happen...Leave it in His hands."