I really don't know what i am going to do. Hopefully since I am at work I am going to focus solely on my work at hand and get through the day. From there, I will try to stay positive about everything.

I don't know if I had said before but yesterday I went to church like always. But it was funny because I had to go up and sing a special. When I sat down, one of the ladies in front of me turned around and handed me a bracelet. On it was the word "HOPE". The message given was on "HOPE". The special song at the end of the service was "There is HOPE". Too funny. I guess that is the slap upside the head that I needed.

I am going to continue my persuit of being nice and loving whenever I see him. I am going to try to stop asking him if he spent the night with her. I am going to try to be the wife that he didn't think i was when he first started this A. I am going to look forward to each day and especially the days that we have counseling. I guess that is what i am going to do to make myself feel better.

Thanks for the kick in the pants!

"Be patient to persevere and wait for God to heal. Keep in mind that you are both imperfect people. Look to God as the source of all you want to see in your marriage and don't worry how it will happen...Leave it in His hands."