I just can't take the fact that he thinks it is ok to continue this A. I do not want to be in an open M. First of all it is morally wrong and secondly, I want my h back and my M back. I don't know what more I can do to make him see the bad choices that he is making. I don't want to be the hard butt and keep him from seeing the kids because in the end it will only hurt them. And I don't want to do or say anything that could completely push him away.

I guess I am going to have to go back to my initial decision to not call him. We have gotten back into calling each other for whatever reasons because it felt good to just talk and hear each other's voices. But now,I need to go back to not calling at all. It is going to hurt all over again but I don't want to be played anymore.

"Be patient to persevere and wait for God to heal. Keep in mind that you are both imperfect people. Look to God as the source of all you want to see in your marriage and don't worry how it will happen...Leave it in His hands."