Doing It My Way

[Trying]

Thanks MrsH and FH! I know he is being a MLC Jerk and I need to detach...more. I always think to myself "wow i am doing so well. i can do this, i dont miss him as much, in fact for all that he has done, i dont need a person like that in my life." Then out of no where I feel like i get sent back to square one! So hard to do.

I just cant believe he was mad cause i was going to pick up d4 instead of meeting him. ONE THING...he isnt getting back at me cause he couldnt get into my house. The thing is he is always welcomed there. It is no big deal. He stays at my place, alone with my things and watches our d4 there. Now i cant even swing by his front door to get her cause i am uninvited and overstepping boundaries. Ha.

Well when he first got his place back in April 06, i went over and THEN AND ONLY THEN, did i sort of look thru things. he was watching me the whole time. I was just looking at his towels, cupboards, closet. Yes i was snopping, but with him watching me. I was looking for signs that he was dating my sister (it wasnt confirmed then, but i knew deep down) WELL NOW, he throws it in my face several months later, that he doesnt like me in his place cause i snoop. So GO FIGURE. I did bad way back then and am paying for it now. THE STORY OF MY MARRIAGE!

To love someone in MLC is like...being told you can no longer have chocolate; you know you cant anymore, but you just want one last bite to remember what it taste like.

So frustrating...HAS ANYone ever had this happen?????
************PICTURE IT*********** A nice warm day, you are sitting on the couch with your spouse, talking laughing, then kissing, then just being with each other in that comfortable married way. You are warm all over, you cant believe how lucky you are to have this great person with you. THey love you and you love them. Ahhhh, so perfect. ***********************

Then the stupid alarm goes off.
Then the tears start...