I think the hardest part for me is the no ILYs. I feel if I don't say them, then he will forget or if I do say them, I am pressuring him into a decision. I am confused on that aspect.
I think getting back into church is a great idea. That will give you another support group. You don't know how much strength my church has given me.
Have a great day!
"Be patient to persevere and wait for God to heal. Keep in mind that you are both imperfect people. Look to God as the source of all you want to see in your marriage and don't worry how it will happen...Leave it in His hands."