Thanks. It hasn't been easy keeping all of these emotions bottled up but I have done a good job the last two days just NOT CARING what she does. I am going to make myself happy and be a good father and husband. If she wants to join in on the fun. . .great. If not, it is her loss. Of course, this is how I am ACTING. . . . .It is a different story on the inside. . . .fake it, 'til you make it.

My wife actually told me today that the reason we can't go visit her parents in NC is because we don't have enough $$. Funny that we have enough $$ to go visit other man in another state!!! A's really do make them stupid. Let's see. . . .parents who haven't seen their grandkids in a year or get "closure" with OM?? Whatever.

The PMA has gotten easier day by day. I want to join some club or take a class or something. If she wants to join me she can but I don't need her to. I am going to start going to church to.

I didn't call her again today She sent ME an email that said that she hoped I was having a nice day and some other info. I didn't read until late in the day and found something else to do besides respond.

I have not been rude or ignored her while at home. Just kind of friendly/indifferent. No ILY's and no kisses for her when I leave for work (used to be routine) and go to bed. Just a very friendly goodnight and off to sleep. I have to admit I do put my arm around her when she is asleep. I do miss my wife

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M 34 H 34 Together 8 yrs Married 7 yrs Son 2 1/2 Son 2 1/2 SD 12