I didn't call home at all yesterday. That was huge. It isn't easy.
When I got home my wife gave me grief about something but I didn't make a big deal out of it and pretty much let it go.
I started to make dinner for my sons and she suggested that we all go out to eat as a family. So we did. She does like it when we all get together and go out together since we can't do it much.
While she was getting ready she said that she needed to talk to me about her plans this weekend. She said that she had a long conversation with OM and that she was going to Denver to get some stuff off of her chest with him and make amends. She said she felt like she used him and that is not the kind of person that she is. She said that the visit is not going to be physical in nature. . . .who knows?
From the way that she told me I tend to believe her.
I did my best to remain positive. I was quite pleased that she actually told me this and didn't lie about the trip. . . . .originally she told me she was going to visit a girlfriend in Little Rock.
I told her that she needs to do what she needs to do and that I really appreciate her honesty. I didn't make a scene or anything. I didn't even comment when she said that she told OM that I probably think that she is going there to sleep with him but even if I did think that it is none of my business!!
Whose business is it?!?!?!?!
Anyways we actually had a nice dinner out, laughed a little, etc. She did make a comment at dinner that it was symbolic that she lost her wedding band this past week. I came back and said well. . . . .maybe that means that we need NEW wedding bands to start a new marriage. She said that she would have to fall in love with me again and made a comment that she thinks it would be better if we lived in separate homes. We didn't dwell on that and it kind of faded away.
Well, when we got home I was pretty tired. I asked her if she would help me get the boys ready for bed. She said that she would take care of it. I thanked her and said goodnight. . . .I didn't give her a kiss or an ILY and pretended like it didn't bother me a bit.
One day at a time. . . . .just hope I can get through the weekend and that when she comes back that she will be through with OM. Time will tell.
SOH
M 34
H 34
Together 8 yrs
Married 7 yrs
Son 2 1/2
Son 2 1/2
SD 12
