I gotta keep hope alive! OM is gone. . . .

[Spirit_of_Hope]

Well, yesterday I was feeling pretty crappy. Today I am feeling not so bad. I talked to a counselor yesterday on the phone. . . . .she is more of a Christian counselor. She always makes me feel better about what is going on. She helps me realize that my wife is very confused and has problems that do not root with me.

I am just continuing to be a good husband and father. I didn't call her today Which wasn't easy but I don't want to make myself too accessible. I have to stop pursuing her. She is the only one that will be able to realize that she is making a mistake and that her marriage vows should come first no matter what.

My counselor told me that "Every good marriage take two good FORGIVERS." I have forgiven my wife of what she has done and I will forgive my wife for what she is doing.

She just doesn't want to forgive me

I will continue to remain committed to our marriage no matter what. I know that God will eventually soften her heart and allow me back in.

Three more days until she visits other man. I have been praying that the trip will not happen. If it does happen I hope that she sees that she has a wonderful family at home.

Keep us in your prayers.

SOH