J
All I can honestly say that as long as my Husband is willing to try I am also.
As you know, I packed up my house and was trying to sell it to relocate.
I was doing this more for the kids then for me.
As much as I love CA I also love my home here and didn't really want to give it up, BUT I would have done so had God not intervened.
My prayer was that my H would just move back home and IF in time we decided to move back to CA, that we would do it as a family.
As far as his job is concerned, he will be working for the same company doing freelance work.
One of the key differences between you and I is that you have completed your education, you have a career and are financially secure.
You have so much more independence then I do and in some ways that should give you some security.
At least if you try to make things work with you and your marriage and things backfire, you have the ability to stand on your own two feet and support yourself.
That is one of my biggest regrets.
That during the MLC I didn't just go back to school, as I would have completed my degree by now.
J, I don't like the idea of you and the OM.
If you are sharing personal things with him and becoming too close even if you can say you are just friends, it can be bordering an EA.
Two people going through similar cirumstances, a shoulder to cry on...you already know the schpeil.
Just be careful.
I don't want you to base your decisions on emotions.
Every day I deal with memories and I hope that in time they will go away.
Perhaps there will always be a scar there from the hurt that was caused, but I don't want to dwell on the bad stuff anymore.
For the two years he has been gone he has led a life that did not include me or the children.
He made new friends told many lies and tried to escape reality.
BUT
On the plus side, as much as he tried to forget about us he couldn't and is coming home.
I also have to look at the fact that he is giving up his dream job and returning to the place he ran away from.
I think coming home takes alot more guts then running away.

My Husband has been making apologies, things are moving forward and I am still working on patience and being still.
This time last year I was waiting for Divorce papers to arrive.
Now I am waiting for my Husband to arrive.
I see the light at the end of the tunnel.
J, this is a risk but I have to try it one more time.


There can be no testimony without a test.
I am praying to go through this test and come out the other end with a new and better marriage then before.