What a strange trip its been! This weekend we did the set up for Christmas thing. Purely family stuff. We did not talk R. We had dinner and W and I had a great time visiting. She mentioned an idea about telling all of her bridesmaids and joked about it. She said she was embarrashed about the whole thing. We talked about going to some formal events after the first of the year. Wonderful dinner with the kids. She dropped me off and I told her to call me when they got home. She called and said she was sorry about the whole mess and that she would always love me. I told her she was a beutiful woman and person and that I loved her also. I have to work tomorrow so I cannot do the family stuff. I told her to call me if the kids drove her nuts. This was the best two days we had together in a very long time.
I have very angry feelings toward her for putting our family through this. Neverthelesss I can understand how we got here. I pray that I get time to turn this around. We talked about Christmas presents. I want to get her something nice to wear to the formal events. She asked are you sure, I said of course! We can say if was from the kids.
This whole thing is up and down. This weekend was an up, I just hope I can last the downs.
