Piecing question

[want2bmarried]

I don't know if I still got it. I managed to not backslide and sleep with him this weekend but he sure hurt me alot.

He text messaged me on Saturday afternoon and wanted to get together. I didn't respond.

Yesterday I found out that he was sloppy drunk and flirting with women at our local club Saturday night. He saw my gf's there and sort of hid. Hearing this breaks my heart. I wish I could avoid hearing it, but the small town gossip is bad. People let you know whether you want to or not.

He had the nerve to start texing me last night about coming over again. I replied "how can you ask me that? haven't you hurt me enough?" He began fishing to see what I knew. I didn't respond anymore.

How can he love this life of partying/drunk all the time? How do you let what they do not hurt you?